“I Can’t Go to Church. How to Get Over It?”
Question for the Spiritual Father of St Elisabeth Convent
Q: Father Andrew, your blessing. I believe in our Lord Jesus Christ but currently, I don’t go to church, I don’t pray in the morning and the evening. I haven’t confessed nor taken communion for a very long time. I commit a lot of sins. My soul yearns for God but in reality, I can’t even go to church. What can I do about it?
I don’t get it. What do you mean? I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me (Philippians 4:13). You’ve got to break free from the obstacles that hinder you and distract you from the church, i.e., your sins, such as laziness, faintheartedness, or something else. Arrange a date and do whatever it takes to get to church and to take communion and partake of the Eucharist. Once you’ve done that, don’t be neglectful and keep coming to the confession and communion regularly and as frequently as you can. Little by little, it will become the rule of your life. That’s how people grow as Christians.
The kingdom of heaven suffereth violence (Matthew 11: 12). Your feet won’t run to the church without your brain telling them to do so. Condoning yourself is bad. When one wants to eat, one goes to a grocery store, whether one likes it or not. You have to go to work, and you go to work because otherwise you’ll be fired and lose your livelihood. And still, we can’t go to church… Don’t our souls demand some food, light, and love, too? Where do we find it? Only God can supply your soul with everything she needs for a normal Christian life.
January 16, 2019